anxiety. I just want the baby to be healthy, but my lifestyle pre-preggo knowledge wasn't so much. I'm worried that that hurt the baby in some way. I just want my little one to be healthy- and I know it's irrational but I've been over analyzing everything that I have done over the last couple months trying to make sure I've been doing everything right. What about those prenatal vitamins I skipped or threw up? What if my diet isn't healthy enough? What if I'm doing something horribly wrong and my baby is going to be the one to suffer?
The nightmares aren't helping either. In one dream I've had a healthy baby, the rest my little one has died of SIDS or I've miscarried or been attacked and tummy punched. It's scary to think that I'm supposed to be keeping and caring for this tiny person and so many things can go wrong inside of me.
Tiny baby, be okay. I love you.