We all have

 so many plans, and I'm definitely no exception to that.  Sometimes I feel like it's more fun to plan my life than to live my life.  But since I've been working so hard on planning and prepping the house with my dad and Paul it's made me really think about prioritizing.  Yes, I want a bigger bathroom with a rocking bathtub and killer shower, but I'd rather just have a bathroom.  Yes I've been a pinteresting fool and have been marking dieas obsessively, but I'd rather sleep on an airbed in an empty room besides my husband if it means being HOME.

We're coming up on the four year mark and so much has changed.  Four years ago I was a freshmen in college and when home wasn't there anymore I shut down and shut off.  I became something else, someone I'm not proud of.  Since then I have grown so much, and while that other me is sometimes easier to be I know it's better to try, and to grow, and to become a better wife, a better mother, and a better person.  And now, now we're so close to having a HOME, a real home.  I didn't realize how much I wanted this, how much I needed this.  I can't wait to take a house and make it a place for Anthony to feel safe, for Paul to feel comfortable, and for me to feel happy again.

On that note, I'm going to go obsess about paint samples :)

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