We Aren't Done

This weekend was amazing. Saturday Paul, Anthony and I took a much needed "We Day." We packed our bags, changed our plans, and headed to the beach.



On the way we stopped by my grandparents house. They're amazing people, and oh how they've lived. Paul tinkered with their electronics while I visited and tried to keep Anthony from destroying everything. In the midst of keeping him out of the credenza, I discovered a collection of mismatched antique teacups that belonged to my great grandmother Ada Christopher. I got chills. This woman, who I have never met and who is nevertheless a part of me, did something that I've had on my heart to do for so long. We are family. We are connected on ways we can't even imagine.



From there we went to the beach. It was a cumbersome journey, traffic, closed roads, we almost didn't make it. But I'm so glad we did. Anthony slept for most of it, and whole it was nice to have some time for just me and Paul.  It's little things, little moments like that that remind me why I married the man.  We played in the tidepools, and walked along as far as we could down Cardiff beach.   We came close to waking Anthony up, we missed him and we wanted him to be part of the fun, part of the adventure. That's parenting folks. That's how I know my family isn't complete.




Sometimes it feels like it is. Sometimes it feels like we could be one and done. Anthony is perfect, we don't need any other people in our life. But, I feel like they need us. There are souls that God wants is to foster, there are little persons who still need to be a part of our family. And I want them all. I want every single one we are supposed to have. If that means we are in our 40's and still having kids, so be it. This is our life. This is what we are supposed to be doing. This is what God intended us for, to be a family.




To be honest, I'm scared to have more kids right now.  I like how things are.  I love my baby and I don't know how I will love anyone else, and my body has been so messed up for so long I haven't had the energy to even think about more children.  We sort of do NFP, but we know that if God wants us to have another baby, we will have another baby.  Our next little one (who is already named!) will come when he or she is meant to come.  We are open to life, we are open to family, we are open to God.






We aren't perfect.  We probably won't ever be.  But we are following God's plan for us.  We live, we love, we do.  We take each day, one at a time.  We have struggled, and will struggle again.  We'll do it together, all of it.  Paul may not love the idea of raising goats and chickens and never buying anything from the store ever, but he's behind me.  I don't like the idea of spending money on anything at all, but that's part of Paul's love language, so I'll roll with it.  That's love, that's what you do when you love someone.  You go out of your comfort zone.





Days like this remind me of why we do what we do.  Days like this remind me why God put us on this earth. I am so blessed to have my family, to grow my family.  I am so blessed to be a part of it all.  Capturing the memories of these days is so important.  We can look back and remember what it felt like to walk on that beach, to laugh together, to be joyful.  And Anthony can look back and know he was loved completely.








I hope that you too, can fill your life with these moments, and know that you are loved, so much so that someone created a beautiful world for you. 

God bless you.




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13 comments:

  1. I feel exactly the same way about my little family! When and if God decides to bless us with another child, we'll be ready and willing. Sometimes I feel like there is no way I could love another child like I do my C, and I wonder how another would fit into my seemingly perfect family, but I know he/she would fit, and fit perfectly. (:

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    1. My mom said she struggled with the same thing when she was pregnant with my little sister (which I like to remind my sister of, lol.) I know from the people in my life that God will expand my heart so that I can love more, but it's hard to imagine, just like it was hard to imagine how much I would love Anthony. It's so funny how it all works out!

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  2. I'm visiting from the Modest Mom Blog -
    what a sweet post! I enjoyed this peek into your family. It is an amazing, and terrifying adventure, and wonderful adventure!
    Each day you'll make memories, live the joy, and roll with the tough times. With each new blessing the Lord may add to your family, He'll also add an overflowing cup of love.

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  3. so sweet, your family is darling!!!
    xoxo

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  4. This was sweet. (And I am so with you on the whole never spend money or get everything from the store stuff.)

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  5. Such beautiful photos and words. Don't worry, when the second one comes, if he/she does, there will be plenty of love to go around. :)

    I don't think we're done either. We're putting things in His hands.

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  6. What a sweet post! Lots of good stuff said so simply. Especially like the "we live, we love, we do"!

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  7. Thank you for sharing the blessings of your family. God certainly knew what he was doing when he created family. It is sad that so many people miss all the blessings that you have and are enjoying because of selfishness and sometimes just plain stupidity.
    Blessings,
    Charlotte

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  8. What a beautiful day - thanks for taking us along!

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  9. Honestly, that was the most beautiful thing I've read in a long time! I remember all those feelings. Thank you for sharing this!

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  10. Honestly, that was the most beautiful thing I've read in a long time! I remember all of those feelings! Thank you for sharing this!

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  11. Hi Megan
    What you did, going to the beach to spend a wonderful time with your family is now truly HOLY! You are a delightful bunch of people together and the love between you is so obvious, over via Charlotte's.
    Blessings XX
    Mia

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  12. What a lovely day, and I wish you all the best with your journey of expanding your family : )

    Thanks for linking up with the Tuesday Baby Link-Up, be sure to check out this week!

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