A Funeral Pyre

A month ago we welcomed a new little life into our home, a beautiful pomeranian, yorkie, maltese mix with a personality much bigger than she.  Sweet, energetic, and always down to snuggle, Dani has been a pleasure for our family.  Anthony loved her, I loved her, and Paul tolerated her.  She was perfect.



But we live on a ranch, where permanence belongs to the earth alone.  The wild life here is hungry, and despite best efforts to keep her safe, all it took was a few minutes for a potty trip before she was snatched away.  It's part of the game, the eat or be eaten out here.  It all moves so quickly, and sometimes, there is loss.  It's no ones fault, it's just part of the circle of life.

Here's to you Dani, for the light you brought to our lives.  I wish it could have been longer.  You were sweet and small and wonderful.  I loved your prance and the perk of your ears, your delicate paws and the way you tolerated Anthony's play time.  I loved your people eyes and the way you curled up beside me like you belonged there.  I'm so sorry little one, but heaven needed you more.  Say hi to Sadie for me, while you're there.  Tell her all the things you know I needed to say.

Today you would have been four months old.  I hope the time you had with me was as wonderful as the time I had with you.  I hope that you are happy in place you are in, and that your death was quick and painless.  I hope that you can forgive me, Little Bit.  I'm sorry.

When you get to the place you are going, do a quick lap.  All the smells and sights and chewables will be just what you need.  I've put away your bones and toys.  I put away the collar I made for you, and the blanket you liked to sleep under.  Put I'll never put you away.  You filled a hole in my heart that I thought would be there forever.  You reminded me that little things can be the biggest of all.  You taught me that it only takes a day to open someone's heart.  Thank you for opening mine.



Lord, please grant me peace of mind and heart.  Take this sorrow and turn it into joy.  My faith is with You, and I know that You have a plan, that You love me.  Thank you for the gift of this little dog and for the time I had with her.  Take my sorrow, Lord, to Your cross.


























4 comments:

  1. Oh I'm so sorry. :*( I'm sure she knew how much she was loved, though. Does Anthony understand? Last year coyotes got one of our dogs, and Claire still occasionally asks where Clyde is. Breaks my heart. :*(

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  2. He's asked about the puppy, but I don't think he understands. He's too young. Hopefully he just forgets- that will probably be easier. Thank you for commenting Nikki. I'm sorry that you've had to go through this too. <3

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  3. We TRIED so hard to have a puppy and it just didn't work: allergies and allergies and more allergies. But for those two glorious weeks before everyone was scratching and wheezing, so much joy. I'm sorry for your loss. Obviously, you have a huge heart.

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  4. Thank you so much, that means more to me than you know.

    Have you tried poodles? They're hypoallergenic and awfully sweet!

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