An Apology

color (noun)
1a : a phenomenon of light (as red, brown, pink, or gray) or visual perception that enables one to differentiate otherwise identical objects
  b (1) : the aspect of the appearance of objects and light sources that may be described in terms of hue, lightness, and saturation for objects and hue, brightness, and saturation for light sources
     (2) : a color other than and as contrasted with black, white, or gray
2a : an outward often deceptive show : appearance <his story has the color of truth>
  b : a legal claim to or appearance of a right, authority, or office
  c : a pretense offered as justification : pretext <she could have drawn from the Versailles treaty the color of legality for any action she chose — Yale Review>
  d : an appearance of authenticity : plausibility <lending colorto this notion>
3: complexion tint:
  b : blush



When I met you
I was trapped by your mouth
And the way it said my name
By the color of your skin
In the summer of that storm  
I was just a girl
With a hole for a heart
Begging to please you
And now I've had my fill
Bloated and scarred
Forgive me for I've forgotten 
The soft glow of twilight
And the brush of your lips
A secret I couldn't keep

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I haven't written a poem since I was eighteen.  I haven't written a poem since my house burned down, and I gave up on writing for all those years.  I'm horribly self conscious, but I'm posting it anyway, because that's what writer's do.  We flay ourselves to the bone and ask the world if we're still beautiful.  This is both fact and fiction.  I'll let you decide which parts are true.  

35 comments:

  1. Absolutely love it :) MORE POETRY.

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    1. Spanks :) I will try (though I can't promise it won't sound like I just got ditched at the prom)

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  2. You write beautifully. Please don't stop.

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  3. I thought this poem flowed beautifully. I'm glad you shared it. I won't even venture to guess which parts are true - part of the fun is not really knowing!

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    1. Thank you :) I think that's the beauty of writing, we can wrap reality (or not reality) in pretty words to make everything seem better.

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  4. Poetry is hard, but you did a great job with this piece.

    I love the thoughts of memories, things forgotten, and a secret you couldn't keep.

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  5. Wow! This is beautiful. I love this..."I was trapped by your mouth
    And the way it said my name..." Your poetry is just fine!

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    1. Thanks Renee! It makes me so nervous to share.

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  6. What I've decided is that this is one beautiful, intimate glimpse into a past life. You have a gift for poetry, Megan!

    I was touched by what you said in your explanation of this piece too-how we flay ourselves to the bone and ask the world if we are still beautiful. That is so true-and you have nothing to worry about:)

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    1. Thank you Valerie! That really means a lot <3

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  7. I'm glad to see you're writing again, and your poetry is lovely. Those first few lines are my favorite.

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  8. you're definitely still beautiful...the only time poetry gets screwed up is when people try to be pretentious or arty about it, and there's nothing of either of those things here. i really loved this, read it through a few times right in a row...

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    1. Thank you Shannon. I hope that I never fall into the pretentious and arty trap, no matter what I write ;)

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  9. Those first three lines are exquisite.

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    1. Thank you! (Seriously I can't stop smiling from all these encourage comments)

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  10. that's the way love and poems are - you just have to put yourself out there deal with the good and bad and just keep on keeping on :-)

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    1. So true. Though it was much easier when I kept my love and poetry to myself ;)

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  11. I certainly hope you plan on carrying on with this poetry business because you're great at it. Those first three lines really grab the reader.

    Thanks for linking up!

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  12. the title quite a creative twist on the poetic confession your soul has laid bare. blessings.

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  13. "A girl with a hole for a heart" - beautiful and perfect. I really enjoyed this poem, thank you.

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    1. Thank you Thomas! I'm glad you enjoyed it :)

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  14. Really nice. It was cool how to twisted the metaphor around to make it negative. I'm a fan!

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  15. This was wonderful! I really love the line, "trapped by your mouth." Says so much.

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  16. Love these
    ... the way it said my name
    and having forgotten the soft glow of twilight
    I think you've made a fine return to poetry.

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  17. So glad you decided to write poetry again Megan-this was beautiful!Keep them coming girl,loved it:-)

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  18. That is some very good poetry here!

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  19. Fact or fiction, poetry is bravery in my book. Condensing your emotions into a small pocket of images is never simple.

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