Oh boy. Friends. I've had a lot of these, over time. In my past I invested a great deal of myself into friendships. I made them a priority above almost everything. I've had terrible friendships, I've had great friendships, but there has always been a struggle, a disconnect. Though I've loved deeply, I haven't always aligned myself with the best people for me, the people who uplift me, the people who make me a better person. Which is why, in general, I have ended my focus on friendships. Instead, I focus on family.
I was blessed to be born into a group of incredible people. I'm the oldest of seven daughters. I have a father who is fair and kind. I have a mother who is loving, passionate, and real. I have six little sisters who are so different, all in wonderful ways. Really, in the last few years, I have come to appreciate that in ways I never could before. My dad always told me to spend time with my sisters because those are the friendships that last forever. My dad always stressed the importance of family, above all else. In my youth I shook my head, because he didn't understand. I was wrong.
I've fostered fantastic friendships with my siblings. I've made them a priority, because in the end, they love me for who I truly am. They've loved me at my worst, they've loved me at my best. They are the people I want to spend time with, they are my people.
That's not to say I don't have other friends, because I do, and I love them dearly. But there's always a sense of mortality with them, knowing that people change and friendships evolve, and part of evolution is extinction. And that's okay. It didn't used to be, and I've cried more tears than I can count over friendships gone awry. But I am older now, and wiser.
They say that blood is thicker than water, which is very true. My friends are the ones that God designed for me, the people that where born into my life, the people who are part of me. My mom, my sisters, my cousins. Those are the friendships that matter. Those are the friends that I will keep, forever.