Song #fiveminutefriday




You want to go back to where you felt safe
To hear your brother's laughter, see your mother's face
Your childhood home is just powder white bone
And you'll never find your way back


It puts me right back there, right back to the place I was when I heard it those five or so years ago.  This song was written for me, I know it.  In the wake of the 2007 fires and the loss of my home and everything I thought I held dear I trapped myself up in sad songs, sad songs that understood me.  I listened to this one over and over.

I wonder if they know
 That I don't get the jokes
But I just need to laugh
So don't take my photograph
Cuz I don't want to know 
how it looks to feel like this


The emotion of despair runs deep.  It's something that so many other have felt and connected with.  For me, it was a wallowing tool, an excuse to feel something about my life that I wanted to box up and put on the top shelf of a house that was no longer there. Even now, hearing them brings me back, but the songs don't change me the way they did before.

It wasn't long after I forgave God and myself that I heard this song, and realized that all that time, all I had to do was to turn back.  All I had to do was turn around, and He was there, waiting for me, arms open, love unbound.

Music is the universal language.  It tears us apart.  It brings us together.  It transports us to our savior, if we let it.

What is music doing in your life?

1 comment:

  1. Beautiful post. Honest words. Thanks for sharing your fire story and sad song.

    Loved this: "It wasn't long after I forgave God and myself that I heard this song,
    and realized that all that time, all I had to do was to turn back. All I

    had to do was turn around, and He was there, waiting for me, arms open,
    love unbound." Definitely beauty from ashes. Only God. Only He may
    raise to life what what burned and buried, lamenting from the ash heap.

    I agree with you re: the power of music. May the Lord add stanzas of hope to your new song in Him, Megan.

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