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Five Minute Friday

The deep feeling of isolation has sunk in recently, because though I connect with people over twitter and facebook, I don't really see anyone in real life who is not also related by blood or marriage.  It's hard, because ever since I was little, I've wanted to belong.  I've tried to shape myself into the person people want me to be, tried to make all the right jokes and say the right things.  It took over 20 years for me to settle into my own skin, and now here I am, feeling alone.

I need to remind myself, almost constantly, that I'm not alone.  That I'm never alone.  God is with me, God is always with me.  He lifts me from my loneliness into His sweet and tender arms.  He taught me to be, to be myself, to belong in His family and His kingdom.  It's why I have words, not just to write stories with unhappy endings, but to find myself again and again between the words, in the beauty of a moment, in peace.  It's why I'm here at all, to belong, to be part of life, to endure.

God bless you.  

31 comments:

  1. This is beautiful friend, achingly so... I love your heart and praying that you feel Him near.

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  2. A most gorgeous explanation as to why we write. Fantastic!

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  3. We do find ourselves in the words he gives, don't we? Keep enduring because He will continue to reveal Himself through those words.

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  4. He really doesn't ever leave us. We belong to Him. He won't ever let you go.

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  5. Ok, Megan, it goes without saying that you have a crazy God-given talent with words... so I'm just going to say - when/if I get out to San Diego, we are going to get together for tea or coffee or beer or wine... or, yea, bacon. :)

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  6. I wish we lived closer. That is all. I wish we could be real life friends.

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  7. I do admit that your tweets tonight were making me chuckle :) and definitely not in a trying to be funny kind of way. You seem like you'd be a joy to know in real life! God has created us for community, so I can understand your ache for that. Praying you would be filled with his peace and that He'd knock your socks off with an amazing community to do life with in addition to your family!!

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  8. Shandra White HarrisJuly 18, 2013 at 10:24 PM

    and bless you! Lovely . Transparent. Shandra

    http://shandraharris.wordpress.com/2013/07/18/five-minute-friday-belong/

    Tweet to: @shandra_lee

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  9. "to find myself again and again between the words". This. Thank you!

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  10. Yes - what Barbie said! I love that too - "to find myself again and again between the words." So Much Yes!

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  11. I like your Dr Who cup. And your post. ; )

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  12. so very true.

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  13. Beauty!!! God's child and in His presence!
    My post: http://kaeakingskid.blogspot.com/2013/07/20130719-five-minute-friday.html

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  14. i hear you on finding yourself and then thinking you are alone. so glad to know that He will never leave nor forsake. visiting from FMF

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  15. <3 thank you

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  16. Thank you Janel!

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  17. Thank you Kimberly!

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  18. Thank you Denise

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  19. Ah ha! Thank you. My sister made it for me (the mug, not the post). Always excited to see another whovian out and about

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  20. Thank you Karrilee

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  21. Thank you <3

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  22. Thank you Eva! I'm glad that I have the FMF community. I'm so lucky to have my family, and I'm working on having more (though I shouldn't really need it)

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  23. Me too Marcy! <3

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  24. YES. PLEASE. We can make bacon and drink wine and I could convince you to move to San Diego forever

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  25. Thank you Dawn <3 I have faith that He will. :)

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  26. Thank you Nadine <3

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  27. Thank you Tonya <3

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  28. Thank you Alyssaz!

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  29. Tiffany Mrsh HaywoodJuly 22, 2013 at 3:38 PM

    "It's hard, because ever since I was little, I've wanted to belong. I've tried to shape myself into the person people want me to be, tried to make all the right jokes and say the right things."


    Your voice echoes myself...thank you for sharing...and you are right God IS always with us and with Him we always belong.

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