Fight #fiveminutefriday

Hello friends!  It's been awhile.  God willing, I should be writing with you again on a more regular basis.  I've missed you. <3  For those of you who are new to Lisa-Jo's writing phenomenom, we are given a word and five minutes to write on it.  No editing, no second guessing- just writing.  This week's word is "fight."  And go.
Five Minute Friday


I have things I want to say on fighting, and the people in my life who are desperately fighting for something I need them to fight for, but the words are flowing like honey in the snow and I can't seem to get them out.  The thing is, I'm afraid.  I'm afraid if I admit my fears and struggles on life and death and the people around me that it will make them real; that the words will be too much and they'll break the world we're clinging to.  Sometimes I like to pretend that nothing has changed, that people haven't grown older and that I'm not getting older, either.  But then I see and I hear and I know and I can't change the still turning world as hard as I try.  I'd like to tether it to the moon or to some force in our vast universe to slow down time but everything moves, everything is moving and there is nothing I can do.

I guess that's the real problem.  I am helpless but to watch and try to laugh still, knowing that it might be a last chance.  I hate thinking that, I hate knowing that these bodies are finite.  Sometimes when I'm in the shower I find myself wondering what life would be like if we were immortal.  And it's then that I remember.  It's then that I remember that we are, that while our bodies may fade our souls won't, that we'll be together again.  In our frail, human years, it will seem a lifetime.  It will be a lifetime.  But then we'll have the rest of forever, then we'll have a whole eternity to laugh and love and be together in the fullness of God.

That's what we have to fight for.


13 comments:

  1. your mind must be a terrifying place.

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  2. "I am helpless but to watch and try to laugh still, knowing that it might be a last chance." Oh my eyes started burning on this...me wanting so much to keep everyone I love alive and with each other, but time goes on. And it kinda stinks, doesn't it? I know we have eternity and I thank God for that, but those here until then are the ones that are left with broken hearts. Oh, how I will long for eternity even more then...

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  3. This is truly touching. Some days I long for Jesus to come and take me home, to be reunited with those I miss. Linking up with you for the 5MF!

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  4. I understand. I have been there. I remember weeping each holiday as we pulled out of my parent's drive, "Will this be the last Christmas together? Will this be the last Mother's Day/Father's Day?" Ugh, it is tormenting and sad. This life seems to be so fleeting, but praise God for eternity!

    I am visiting from Lisa-Jo's place.

    Thanks for sharing your heart.

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  5. Oh, Megan! Thank you for sharing a piece of your heart with us. I miss so many people who have already gone to eternity and it doesn't seem fair that I should have to go one without them.

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  6. I like your style! And who knew there was a video out there of a wombat riding a turtle! But I would have loved a happier ending (says the girl who was raised on Disney movies).

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  7. Holly Solomon BarrettJanuary 3, 2014 at 6:56 AM

    The rest of forever! I can't wait!

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  8. Oh man, I'm with you. I just spent Christmas with my grandparents, and my granddad's mind is fleeting. It broke my heart to see my tough, independent granddad so childlike. And somedays I've even scared to pray and not sure how to pray because it just makes the reality more real. Thanks for sharing your heart on this! Glad I'm not alone!

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  9. This is so beautiful... I am so thankful that every Last we encounter here, is overshadowed by Eternity there. It is so difficult to watch, not knowing when it will really arrive and pass us by. "Last" can seem to final - but I'm glad He reminded you that it is not!

    Prayers for you, friend... prayers and joy and living in the present (here's a tip...THAT is what slows down time!)

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  10. This is so beautiful, Megan. Your words are honest and transparent. Incredibly touching!

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  11. So beautiful! Thanks for sharing your heart!

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  12. Ya know...I'm not exactly sure how to react to this post but how could I not love a woman who uses the words 'nemesis' and 'nefarious 'in her FMF (much less a vid of a turtle with a wombat riding on it) and has her very own disappearing Tardis coffee mug.

    Happy Year my friend and in case you are wondering, yes, bow ties are still cool.

    Thanks for the smile and the laugh this early Sunday morning.

    ~ Cassandra from Renaissance Women

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