Choose #fiveminutefriday

It's been a tomato soup in the carpet day, a grounds in the coffee, million things to do but never get done day. The words I've written don't seen good enough. The floor still cluttered despite several pickups, the dishes in their second run because even the dishwasher is against me. The toddler tantrums have been more than I can handle, the sky reflective of my current mood- to the point where in the middle of cooking dinner I told Paul I needed some time and went for a drive. It might have been a mistake, the city lights driving me to reflective self loathing over my raised voice and muddy carpet. Had I been brave enough to look in the mirror, I would have seen a woman I don't like.

I pulled into my driveway, anticipating the chaos I left to still be present. But when I walked in, Anthony lept up, smiling. 

"Mama come home!" 

He took my hand, leading me to the couch and feeling the softness of my fuzz pajama pants as I sat. 

"I came home. I was just sad, baby."

"Sad?" He took my face in his hands and wrapped his arms around my neck. "Mommy  happy."

And it that moment, with his arms around my neck, his head resting on my shoulder, all the failures of the day were swept away. This is the life I chose. It doesn't come with breaks or how-to manuals. It doesn't come with guarantees or promises of constant validation. But it does come with love, and plenty of it. And joy, in the smallest of moments, when a hug was all I needed.


Five Minute Friday

9 comments:

  1. I definitely relate to this! Wonderful post!

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  2. Awe, sweet babe. Amazing how they can send us into fits one minute and then melt our hearts the next, isn't it? I'm glad you got a minute away, and came home to a hug around your neck!

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  3. Make me cry, why don't you???
    Love your post.

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  4. Love this. So much. Happy Friday, friend! :)

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  5. Oh I love this! I love that you were able to get out and go for a drive too... sometimes that is just what is needed to bring us back to center!

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  6. The power of do overs is amazing. We might not like what we see in the mirror, but we have the power to choose our attitude and to choose to ask for a do over at any time. Don't be discouraged, God is near and full of special love for mothers.

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  7. Those sweet little hugs make all things better dont they ?

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  8. This is very sweet and I'm smiling. My babies are long grown. I just blinked one day, and they were having babies of their own. Cherish every hectic, chaotic, exhausting day.

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  9. Holly Solomon BarrettMarch 1, 2014 at 9:27 AM

    Those are the best hugs in the world! And they seem to cure all that ails us.

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